a pain of a decision

. . . so im not gonna deny that i hate our president, and even more so her God-forsaken husband, and the mere idea that they're the ones running this country is driving me nuts. . . and then there's abalos, andaya, garcillano and the rest of those shitheads that i'd happily electrecute (myself) given the chance.

that's why i don't understand (for the love of God!) why my father's running. oh yeah, it's big news. . . so big infact, that i'm regarding it as a major catastrophe ---> a major ideological miscalculation on the part of my pa. there was a time when every dinner we never fail to discuss this current government's failure to uphold the interest of the masses. there were those "what if" scenarios. . . and then what would happen to Estrada, FPJ, and the rest of the opposition, and how my father predicted they'd soon be in power through another people power or a failed coup. but the more you watch the news, the more you get that "reality" slap in the face that she's the president, and of course, she's bound to control everything from the senate down to the highest echelon's in the Philippine army. then i went here, and all that talk, all that prediction flashed before our eyes like a mere dream in this barren country known as Arroyoland.

So maybe i shouldn't blame Pa. i made him a blueprint for his campaign streamer just yesterday. It wasn't bad, it wasn't that good either (I hate letterings, never was one of my strong suits). i always thought when one member of your family enters politics, it literally means being a public figure, servant , whatever,. . . but from the word "public", there's always that underlying tone that connotes transparency, and oh, how i hate that word.

well, that's that. despite everything, i still have high respect for Pa. best wishes on you this election.